What is “Stay Forever?” (A work in progress)
You think you have so many great thoughts until it is time to put pen to paper (fingers to keyboard)…
I am glad that I am culminating my abroad experience with giving myself the opportunity to take what’s been up there and put it out here. This has been a long time coming, actually, and 50 euros is cheaper than the price of a therapy appointment, so if this does any good I’ll be pleased. Not that it’s about the money.
Your name! Arguably the most fundamental aspect of your being; something that is known about you before you are anything. Most people never take the opportunity to tell others who they are- they are as they are called. I, for now, am most people.
Admitting that you would like to change in any sense is extremely hard- I am not sure that I even want to do that! (For those of you not writing this, and me, if I ever choose to come back and look at this- I was trying to find a way to describe how monumental of a change it would be to take a new name. However, looking at the “Admitting that you would like to change” and “is extremely hard” seemed to best fit my current mindset, without any add-ons. One step at a time, big guy.)
Change will always ask to take you along, though.
A seed of change was planted in my brain and has since
Turning the brown, grey and beige of normalcy into lime green, magenta and yellow. Asking to mold itself from clay, dirt, platinum, and…
How does it feel to be born at 20 years old? 21?
Welcome to the world, Stay. The water’s warm.
(The only thing I can think of right now is Fight Club, unfortunately. I swear what I’m describing is much more unique and cool.)
((I hope someone reads and finds this helpful (and me smart). In fact, I hope many people read this. I want to be loved by all for my lime green and magenta and yellow. ))
Stay Forever 